>> Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Hi everyone. As you know, I'm FINALLY home. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to sleep in my own bed.
Yesterday afternoon and evening were especially hard though. Bringing Brooke home was an incredible feeling. Although, it was just so hard to leave Kamryn behind. I hated that a piece of me was still left there in that hospital. Although, the nurses that are watching after her day and night are nothing short of amazing, so I know that she is in good hands. Shawn called up there late last night and she was still doing amazingly well.
My pain as of last night was still pretty intense. It has been hard to walk, sit up, stand up and sit back down. It was so hard being home, and not really being able to do anything. Depressing, actually. We fed Brooke and changed Brooke at about 10:30pm, and then it was lights out. Of course, Brooke and Shawn (and Hollie - she HAD to sleep with us last night) were snoozing away, and I was scared to death to go to sleep. I was afraid the cat would jump in the cradle, or I was afraid that Brooke would cry and I wouldn't wake up. Well, she slept all the way to 2:30 and finally started to stir a little bit. I got up with her, changed her, fed her and put her right back down. She slept til about 6:00 or 6:30. Just like her big sister, she's a fabulous sleeper. Shawn got up with her, and let me sleep until 9:30. I'm a happy camper. I'm especially happy, b/c my pain is so much better today. I can finally walk around without looking like a hunch back. I can't tell you what a relief that is.
Shawn is on his way to the hospital to check on Kamryn. My friend Jackie is on her way in town to stay with me for a few days. She and I are going to go up there tonight to see Kam. I can't wait to see my baby. I miss her so much.
Shawn has been a TREMENDOUS help for me. He's done so much. He did all the laundry before I got home. Since we've been home, he's been helping out with Brooke so much. Feeding her, changing her, sterilizing bottles, getting bottles ready, etc. I can't tell you how lucky and blessed I feel right at this very moment to have him. He's done so much more than I ever could have asked for. I'm so thankful!!!
I also wanted to let everyone know how thankful I am for all their texts, emails and blog responses. I am just now getting around to reading them, and responding. It may take me a while to get to yours, but I just want you to know that I appreciate them so very much. It's so nice to have such wonderful friends and family in my life who care so much.
Shawn will update tonight with a Kamryn update. Love to you all.